Another one I'm not sure I should post

I promise I will reign myself in and not let this be a sappy explication of "What relationships are". But I am tempted. Because right now I don't know what I'm doing. I am without a sail or true life 8 ball. And something about uncertainty makes me want to start spouting life lessons. When I was younger I couldn't understand what people meant when they said relationships are hard work. Or why people divorced. I mean, it seemed simple. Duh, you fight and you get on with it. Or you pout until you get your way. Or you apologize if you have to. I was pretty sure I'd be one of those laid-back girlfriends who communicated well and didn't nag. Asserted my needs but let him make his own decisions. The thing is, you're not working with a doll. You're not able to say, "Ok, now I made my point, let's move on". There is a COUNTERPOINT. That's like the small-b to plan B and I didn't make one of those. There's this line in a Matchbox 20 song and before you close your browser let me tell you what it says. He sings, "just like me, you've got needs and they're only a whisper away". And I know if my mother is reading this, she is rolling her eyes at my self-centered drama. But I heard it today, after a fight with Bud, and it occurred to me, right, this relationship is not the Hope Show. But, but! it's not the Bud Show either - right? I don't buy the whole "relationships are hard work" thing. I just don't. They can be hard but they are not work. Work is, I don't know, pejorative. And it's not work. Just miserable fun sometimes.