Taking a moment to reflect

I have some big news and it goes with a big story but, since I have not spoken to all of the people I know I really do need to speak to about this Big News, I am not posting about it yet. Although if you think, really hard, you can probably even guess the BN. But I will tell you this. As I was going through a list of people this morning, I heard my voice mutter, "Who is this cracker?". And then I stopped and realized, I had just referred to someone as a CRACKER. I don't know where it came from, I didn't even know I knew that word could be used in an inappropriate way. I just started saying it, like a little kid who recently overheard her neighbor who waters the lawn in his underwear, say something bad. Then repeats it.