Sadie

I can't find Sadie. I let her out last night thinking someone (a bunch of family was outside) would keep an eye out or simply that she wouldn't run off, but by the time I got outside she was gone. I'm obviously not blaming anyone but myself since I didn't give them a heads up nor did I walk out with her like I am now wishing so badly I had. I don't much know what to write because I don't want this to turn into the kind of depressing diary entry most of us wrote in middle school after a particularly horrying day of insecurity. So I guess this is just an update blog. We spent half the night looking for her and all this morning posting flyers and calling shelters and vet's offices. Georgia is my new hero - her energy was limitless in posting flyers and helping out. Scratch that, they are all my heros. My mom called all the offices, Summer spent hours last night looking with us (at 9+ months pregnant and counting), dad drove around last night and with us while we posted signs and Browning got up before work today to drive the streets once more. If you have to lose a dog, try to marry into my family quickly. I will say this about my feelings though, in all my nightmares of this happening, I did not conceive that it would hurt this badly. As I fell asleep last night I was nervous that I would wake up this morning and re-live the horror when I realized again that she was missing. There was no need though since the feeling never went away in the first place. It may sound morbid but there was some comfort in that. Aside from my personal tragedy, tomorrow will be a huge day. Baby Wynn arrives and - when I compartmentalize - I am very excited. I will post/pictures as soon as I can.